6 October 2010

I don't know what to do. All my mind wants to focus on is Sunday. Sunday, Sunday, Sunday. I can't escape it. No matter how far I try to run, it'll haunt me. I have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I'm supposed to be an adult, I'm supposed to be self-sufficient. But I can't do this. I can't imagine being alone on Sunday. Being alone with just my thoughts, locked inside my own head. I'm terrified. I have no idea what's going to happen, I have no idea what I'm going to do. I'll be lucky if I manage to make it out of bed. I just need someone to dig me out of this hole. This is the hardest day of the year and I have nobody to distract me from it. Please, will someone please, save me from myself.