7 October 2010

I'm writing this for one person because I'm sick of said person taking everything that happens in pop culture and relating it to their own experience just to have another chance to get on their little soap box and whine and complain and be self righteous without actually doing anything to change things. You think I live a sheltered life? If this is so sheltered and so much better than what you think you've gone through then so be it. I watched my mother die when I was three years old, I held her hand when she took her last breath. I watched as the paramedics tried to revive her and failed. I was on the phone with my grandfather when he took his last breath. My aunt's alcoholic husband sexually abused and verbally abused me and when I finally had the guts to confess to my family my grandmother had the audacity to put me in a mental hospital under a governmental hold. I watched my grandfather have seizures which caused me to have flashbacks to my mother dying which lead me to attempt suicide. I spent seven years of my life cutting and going in and out of therapy because I couldn't escape what I saw. I've spent my entire life keeping things to myself because my dad claims I'm overdramatic unless he's there to actually witness how abusive my mother's family is. I've been in two car accidents where my aunt managed to kill someone because of her driving skills and I had no choice but to sit there. But unlike you, I grew metaphorical balls as soon as I turned 18 and did something about it instead of just preaching about how fucking much I've been hurt, I went out and changed my life and deserted the people who hurt me so that I could make sure I wouldn't be hurt again. Instead of being like you who complains about being hurt, lets them continuously hurt you, and then justifies their actions when someone tries to bring it to your attention. You really are ignorant. The whole reason you're so miserable now is because instead of actually taking hold of the situation you just let it walk right over you and blamed the results on other people.